I Am Enough

Is it just a dream ? Could it actually be just an illusion ? You know, until you stop and "be" for a year, where all you do is observe, not exist, you realize things are not quite as they seem. It really is a game. The game itself is to find out why you are here. Most will never work this out. They will move along an imaginary path filled with resistance. The resistance comes in waves, and most do not even know there is an ocean.

We run around in this quagmire chasing this never ending finale that leads to nothing. It literally leads nowhere. This is the great mystery of everything. Where and when should truly observe what is around us ? When I say around us, I mean the things that are there all the time, yet never seen. Why the hell do we chase money ? What I find amusing is the fact that what the money is made from gives us all a hint.

Do we truly know where that stuff came from ? Are you aware there are people on this sphere who control every single bit of it ? It's a game ! You know of magician's with their slight of hand, well this is the same. They have conditioned you to believe that this worthless stuff has value. It had more value before it was turned into money. If you have what you need, bearing in mind wants are now needs, the real needs are rather simple. You all know this.

Could it be that we are all caught up in this illusion to distract us from being who we truly are ? Could it be that the people mentioned above know that if there were no distractions, we'd all work it out ? Well, there are some who have worked this stuff out. But it takes going against everything you've been socialized to believe to acquire this knowing. All you have to do is "STOP". Stop running to the next false quiver of happiness, for it doesn't exist. We already have what we are looking for. It's right in the mirror, and it's perfection.

It's simply been "learned" to you all your life that "YOU are NOT enough". Go and get lost in yourself. Let all the pain come up from places you never knew existed. For there lies the answer...... "I AM ENOUGH".

The Flag Bearing Avatar Ignorance

Humans are funny things aren't they. They follow trends of all kinds. We don't want to be left out now do we. It's really interesting to see what happens when your government makes a decision, or an announcement or puts on an event. The flag waivers come from everywhere and the flag makers make a killing on the false flag event. But lately, there's only one person making money on flags, and he's a software specialist. He sits in front of his computer making flags for a number of events, and shares that software to a place called social media. And guess what happens ? We've now got translucent flags all about the place. You can see them if you're lucky you know. They bring a sense of solidarity to those who actually know no one whatsoever who was near or attended the event.  

Why is it that these individuals continue to run these avatars ? When things go down in a western country it seems there's some sort of favoritism. Why is this ? There are plenty of other places on this planet that endure events on a 'daily basis' that are far worse than the western events. Yet for some reason it seems that the software guy can't make these flags that easily. Does he not have the right colour palette, or does he have problems with only having primary colours ? Sometimes things can get a bit overwhelming for "Software Flag Guy", he can really struggle with the demand. After all, he has to produce the correct UI for Microsoft devices, Apple devices, Android devices, and all those strange other UI's that he comes across, especially with custom orders. To me, getting all those colour hues of white, blue and red takes practice.

It's rather ridiculous all this stuff don't you think ? There are 1000's of people who are dying on the planet every day, mostly in direct relation to US and Israeli involvement, yet people have no idea about the body counts in those far away places do they ? So what do they do ? They follow the trend of those in front of them, because they never want to be left out of a great # or trend. If you don't run your avatar as a flag, you are considered an asshole. Well let me tell you who the assholes really are - "those who run the software guys flag and have NO IDEA ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON, IN THE NOT SO TRENDY PARTS OF THE WORLD" You should all be ashamed of yourselves. Below is a link to Iraqi deaths for you to come up to speed, then you can go to the "Software Flag Guy" and ask him for that flag instead. And on that website is the number of deaths in Iraq ALONE since the tragic break up of the romance in the other place.

353 DEAD in Iraq since Friday 13/11/15

While you are "Doing Your Own Research" on the deaths in other parts of the world just ponder how ridiculous it is to change your avatar, especially when YOU HAVE NO IDEA about the criminal deaths in other countries ! Once you find out about all the deaths elsewhere, you will feel ashamed of yourself for being so naive....... Wake Up, death is all around, and 10 X worse than your "False Flag Event" in the romantic city !

https://www.iraqbodycount.org/

Make sure you click on "more" at the bottom !

The layers keep unfolding on a constant basis. It's like erosion that is made possible in a river that never stops running. It wears it's way down stream to finally spill out into a massive basin like the sea. With these currents comes many different moods. And with them comes many different areas of life. Some currents can have you filled with joy and others filled with darkness. What is it that gets us through these times ? Do we actually feel these things for a reason ? If so, why ? Some days we can find ourselves fully feeling different frequencies of energy. The whole thing becomes rather complicated to even articulate. What do we do when things have been sitting at the same point for probably a year ? How do we then still believe that it's all going to be fine ? We know that all things pass, but what if your'e really sick to death of it all ?

I've been through some stuff in my mind about this recently and discovered if we're not careful this phenomena can drag on for longer than we thought and become rather a pain in the ass. The stripping back of the layers to the space where emotion is felt on a minute by minute basis can be rather interesting. It can make the layers seem so thick that, you are almost immune to the water and the grinding away of that which you believe to be true. How many of us actually allow this erosion to take place ? Or is it a case of never even being aware of this thing ? Whilst in the middle of the grinding away, or taking it all back to be the silt that is created we can get into places that are very revealing indeed.

The undoing of all of these layers can sometimes be like taking sandpaper to the layer and other times like being dug up with a shovel. It can be tremendously light, like polish and very coarse too. That water can be soft yet harsh at this same time. And what then can occur is that you can be on the verge of a total meltdown. This becomes apparent when those around you actually add to the water and what it does. This can sometimes be called relatives. They all get together, where you know that none of them have seen nor even heard of the river. You stand by and watch them all talk in small talk. Talking about the weather and the new couch. You can be there, but not there at all because at the end of the day, none of them miss your absence whatsoever. You can see this as you are a ghost in the room, never seen. You are the dark sheep !

You can move into the role of being the guy that's called upon when favors are needed. That's the one I really love, the favor guy. You stand back at all these events because becoming involved is like being the new guy in town, you know, "who's this guy". But with this it's really different, you're not new, you've been there all along. But the water is forcing you down further. It's like the sharpening of a pencil, you keep sharpening till its all gone and no one even knew you were there, yet they used you when convenient. You advise them on stuff and they don't listen. The stuff you've advised them on then ends up occurring for all of them. They then whinge and whine about it like it was never coming, yet were warned by the dark sheep. On and on this goes till you arrive at the point that tells you, you would never sign up to friends like this, so why are you part of this "relative" nightmare abrasion ?

How Have You Been Affected ?

Looking down onto this time space reality I'm seeing many things at the moment. First is this huge influx of souls beginning to realize that all is not what it seems. The excitement of exposing the truth for the first time for these souls is really amazing. They wonder where they've been for all of this life projection. It's everywhere on the media that provides them with the ability to look into it further. Yet, many, because of the distraction and overwhelm are overlooking the key issues. And this is understandable, for when you are asleep and you wake up, you tend to get rather excited. The information that has at first completely terrified them, then becomes a constant push for more dark information. Some refer to this as truth. The truth is magnificent, yet there are fundamental flaws in obtaining it. Once the quest starts, or the awakening, whatever you prefer to call it, things can become a little blanketing. What I mean is, to much of this truth will inevitably get you to a point where you stand back from it all and say to yourself "This is to much for me to handle"

I don't care as to where you are at in your birthing  period, to all souls, the constant negative can be very destructive. It is like before the awakening, all souls are whining about all of their stuff. This never ends. Then they discover this thing called the law of attraction. This phenomena is merely like vibration oscillating with like vibration. So as people move into this area they see all of these little things that "they" have asked for. Then they are left to there own devices to practice acquiring car spaces and the like. This is fun for a while and makes them feel as though they are in control of their lives. Great ! Social media becomes a place to share their experiences, yet souls tend to be tuning with the ego based approach. I see many arguing about certain points of view. To the point where most if not all these souls have become so good in the knowledge that they will argue their case. This is where is still see the duality. Arguing over stuff that is irrelevant.

Quite frankly these souls are not truly getting this wake up call. The comment sections in social media, I believe, are designed to have these souls fighting and bickering with each other. This is common practice with the total and utter control of the human being. Everywhere I look is this fight against each other. This has been widely observed by myself. Keep them fighting among themselves and they will be distracted. Even when they believe they are waking up. It's bullshit ! The obvious thing now is, why does the soul argue ? Is it because of it's socialization ? How long does it take to unlearn, unravel and undo the nightmare that is this socialization ? This is the most destructive thing known to man. It does not allow you to think for yourself. One example is this stupid question.... "How are you ?" When was the last time you actually answered that question with complete honesty ? So we mask over this question and we say with false enthusiasm "I'm fine". What the fuck does that mean ? 

You're not fine and you know it ! Why do you lie ? Why  do you not express how you truly feel ? Here's a good answer to that question. "I'm totally trashed, this energy is getting me down and I'm also struggling to let my anger out of my body therefore I have cramps in my chest"  What is wrong with telling it how it is ? Instead of arguing about stuff on social media and attaining this higher level of intelligence because you think you know more about a specific topic, why not work together and talk about the shit that really consumes the soul ? Quite frankly the masks that are on social media are insane. The old way of greeting one another has actually gone out the window. I've noticed of late, that when greeting people "live" they actually have difficulty in expressing a real hello. I believe that this is social media's fault yet again. Souls can abuse the fuck out of each other in a comment section, yet not even know how to engage with each other face to face. I believe social media has been developed by those who control us to give this false voice, and these devices that truly are here to dumb us down. That has become dramatically evident with the caliber of intellectual conversation. Then there's the "like" or "+1". What the fuck do these things actually mean ?

The cost of the September influx of energy has seen this increase in the expelling of truth. This truth stuff is just coming out in massive waves, unfiltered or organized. It's hitting ALL aspects of the planet. It wasn't just September, for if you feel deeply, the rise in the vortex for months leading up to it, contained these homeopathic doses that got many souls used to what was coming. But nothing could really brace the cosmos for the hangover of this injection of consciousness. The lead up was insane and the ensuing integration is insane. It's an ongoing process, that is deep seated and that I believe will take quite sometime to be developed. In other words, will the dust settle and when ? The dust may have been blown up in the winds that came through, to change certain perspectives and souls will embrace the feelings from within. But, will this engage them in the actual work that is necessary ? I see that the external is still being relied upon to create this phenomena called happiness also. This is of concern I believe, for the internal trauma is merely being projected out right now which in turn creates this spiral of anger and other emotions that really do no good for the mass soul collective. What it does is create more disharmony. I also believe that these projections will be hard to move through. The energy is that of density. To move into the realms of lightening the load on our shoulders, these frequencies are the only way forward. And the only thing you can do is to attempt to deal with it on your own.

The work we do on ourselves will determine how this all develops. Will the collective understand the next step ? Or will they just jump together to embrace all that has been exposed. There comes a time when nothing you see shocks you anymore and the more data you receive the more you are driven to go within. These devices that are given to us as wonderful pieces of technology are actually being used against us. They are being sold to us on a number of levels. Planned obsolescence, to buy more, consume more. Give all your information to a company, be told where you parked your car. All these things are sold to us, as making our lives easier, whereas they are not ! They are overwhelming the minds of us all. They are creating confusion and brain clogging in a massive fashion. Not only that, the actual electromagnetic waves associated with the use of them are completely controlling us. All you have to do is look at this link to realize what is actually happening http://www.stopthecrime.net/docs/SILENT.pdf

This will blow your mind

The Noncomfortable Persists

It's still going. This incredible place of "Noncomfortableness" is still pushing up and through. Librans are having a hard time at the moment. Every day at the same time, after midday the energy rises. It comes in many forms, from itching, anxiety, frustration and all round agitation. It's been going on for days now and I'm slightly over it. You try to feel whats coming up as shadow, and face it head on for the process of integration. But it doesn't seem to be that at all. It's more energetic. It's like the sun reaches the peak in the day and once it's past a certain point it all begins again. These drastic knowings of an energy shift are becoming more easy to pick up as my sensitivity climaxes. I really don't know if that's a good thing at all. It can be a double edge sword as some of us know. To feel so deeply and acutely is both a blessing and a curse. Even typing this I want to push my fingers through the keyboard !

I have the house to myself also. That could be a contributing factor too. The utter shit can come up, and out and I can just scream it all out. The clothes basket lies in the corner, it's truly ruined, which actually makes me chuckle. I don't even know what I'm writing really, it's crap that comes from where my fingertips hit the keyboard. You can lay your bullshit out and post it into the nothingness that is the internet. I have no problem hitting publish at all. Quite the contrary, it's rather liberating to see your words and unexplained crap disappear into the web. The only way to be someone who can guide others, is to have put your own body through the shit that the person you're helping may never experience. I've found that by going deeper, much deeper you equip yourself for anything that is exposed by others in their meltdowns and energetic shifts.

For with experience comes knowledge and expertise. Stuff you can't go to any school to learn. You must bury yourself in your own pain. I mean really bury yourself. You have to make the conscious decision to go in that direction. And it's not an easy one. To go within takes courage, because the bullshit you go through in facing yourself and your shadow is truly like being skinned alive from within. How many of us truly take the time to do this work ? I know of only a few. And they are the people who are here to help others in moving through their pain whilst on the inward path. It's not a nice place, and you will never get it done......ever. But you accumulate the tools to help you get through each purge. Which in turn enables you to guide others through their difficulties.

But I must say, this particular purge is a fucking nightmare. I'm not fully aware of what it's all about yet, but I will be laying it all out here. Here is my space that I go when I can't feel my way through the void moment like now, and for the last few days. The new moon is a nightmare, that is one aspect, as for the other stuff coming up, I'm yet to decipher. I hope that this crap is being integrated and that I will pull through. I really don't even know why I typed that. The universe only gives me what I can handle, and it seems that all the void moments of late have slipped by the wayside as soon as they are dealt with . It's nice to wake up in the morning knowing a certain trigger has gone through to the cosmos and past by me. Taking all of my current crap with it. So we will see, if tomorrow brings some respite to the internal blades and their spiral of healing...

You know those days that give you trauma. The ones that bring things up that are not comfortable at all ? Well, that was yesterday. The cosmos had allowed great anger to breach the surface. My biggest problem was allowing it to get out fully, and safely in today's limiting earth plane. For that particular emotion is frowned upon, especially if expressed outwardly. The difficultly lies in the expression of it. To let anger out is a complete no no in this time space reality. For if you do, you are chastised. Anger must be released, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with letting it exit your your vibration. You will see the change in vibration, nearly immediately.

I had a lot more to rid myself of than I originally thought. I wrote about it yesterday and the force of it emerging was far greater than I had imagined. I went straight past the pegs on the line with the washing, and ended up completely destroying the clothes basket. It's hard to complete the process when there are those around you, who don't believe letting emotion out is acceptable, so I had to do it quietly. Even my dry clothes became victims of my rage. Throwing them around and kicking them as hard as I could. The basket is now unusable and will be a reminder of the intensity of this particular shift.

Anger, is a wonderful emotion. It enables us to completely realize where we are at. I would go as far as to say, it is the most incredible gauge and automatically tells us that we are straying form the correct path. Maybe this is why it's frowned upon, for it gives you the utmost clarity once released from the soul. It enables all that crap to be expelled, that crap that has built up over weeks or even months. For me it is an incredible jump up in my awareness once exhumed. It will destroy us if its not let out to the cosmos. We all have it in varying degrees, it just happens with all that surrounds us during these massive shifts.

The key is this.....Get it all out ! Pick your quiet and private place, where there's no one around, because having to censor your rage to accommodate someone else won't work. The entirety of the emotion will not be oozed out of your cells unless you have your space. You have to find a spot of your own where you can be vulnerable, and exposed to the depths of the pain. As I found yesterday, I could not let it all out because of other people. So what happened is it came to the fore later on. And with greater force. Once you've opened that pressure valve, it all wants to come rushing out, and the key is to let it.

So today I find myself quite joyful after the barrage of this so called bad emotion. Things have shifted dramatically and I'm also lighter. I'm not sure how long that explosion had been building for ? But what I will say is this.... Imagine if we were all allowed to express this thing called anger. Imagine if we all had our own little anger pods where we could go and release. There is absolutely nothing wrong with expressing this emotion, and draining toxicity from your soul. If done correctly, like I have explained for me, you too can accomplish the drain of pent up Anger in safety in your own beautiful way. And as the bird below suggests, move on to the next purge.

Allowing Anger To Dispel Quietly

Do we ever get to the center of it all ? Today has been a day of consolidation, a day of much emotional charge. You can have these days where the only way through is to push like you've never pushed before. Today is one of those. September brought with it a massive hangover of the energetic kind. The whole month leading up to the end, was just intense. It was all about the full and deep integration of stuff that many of us had never felt before. There was a lot of doomsday bullshit floating around as well. To me those doomsdayers really don't understand whats going on. And expose themselves and their limited knowledge. They also make it harder for those who do know what is actually going on. They make the ones who truly know what is happening, look like idiots with the wonderful saying "Guilty by Association" Because the outside, asleep world loves a tin foil hat.

So today is this dark and anger lead energy. It's like a purge from all the cosmic energy that attended and infiltrated the earth on the 28th. There are many of us out there who are completely aware as to what has occurred, and even we are struggling with the shift. This is completely acceptable. There was so much going on. Today for me has been filled with these ups and downs of anger and frustration. It's like a massive integration and also letting go of the toxicity we allow within ourselves. We let it build up which is completely ok. It's not easy to let out your anger within society today. If you are noticing anger all around you, you are no doubt holding onto some yourself. Anger is the harshest emotion, it is the hardest one to express because of our socialization. It's frowned upon to let it out and let go of. Pretty amusing really when you look at the state of projection the world over.

I don't let the internal anger within me get to far down the track. It builds up, you all know what I'm talking about. But the non release of it manifests in such dark areas and we see the overflow daily. Imagine being able to let yours out without a barrier. I can imagine that, because I do. I just finished hanging the clothes out on the line on my own, but it was no ordinary hang out. I snapped pegs, stretched sox, and pushed those pegs onto the clothes until they snapped. And now, I can write very calmly on my blog, because the anger is gone. It won't be the last time either. When they're dry I'll probably throw the pegs into the peg basket so hard that they will break too. And instead of folding the clothes, I'll stuff them into the basket. The best way to let your anger out, is by yourself, every time. For now I'm relaxed, and don't need any further release......Until they're dry, and this is when I know it's expressed, not held in to be projected onto others. Pretty simple really.

The Abandonment Continues

What is it about the current paradigm of abandonment parenting today ? I watch as a child is left in his cot clearly unhappy, uncomfortable and just wanting to be held by it's mother. He's coughed for his entire afternoon nap, and has had no real sleep. The choice to continue this game of "He'll eventually go to sleep" utterly disgusts me. Why is it that this child is rewarded for being a good boy, meaning "go to sleep because that's what good boys do" ?? Yet is put into a place of being a bad boy because he doesn't want to sleep, he just wants to be held and around people. Not only that, when he finally emerges his relatives then smother him to the point that their energy completely engulfs him. This wears him out. He has to first deal with NO attention, then MORE attention than he actually wants. Ironic isn't it that 5 minutes before they were all happy to give him NO attention.

Parenting these days only produces one thing. The same crap it produced the generation before. So now we find ourselves dealing with another abandoned child (the parent), who is now projecting the same sort of trauma onto the new generation. This abandonment comes in all shapes and sizes. The child soon realizes that he will be praised for acceptable behavior and penalized for so called "bad behavior". This all according to the society and deep socialization that takes place between 1 and 7. What a nightmare !!! If a child is crying, it is for a very good reason. Pick the child up and love it. Don't allow it to be abandoned and become the exact replica of it's parent. It makes me sick to the stomach to witness this behavior. And I see it over and over again. Abandonment causes what you are currently seeing in the world today. 

God knows what its doing to the child's heart. But then again, we all know what it's really doing don't we..........because EVERYTHING that we deal with on an adult level is the inner abandoned child, and it occurs deep within us all EVERYDAY..... 

Riding The Bike

Sometimes life stays still while observing things. Sometimes while you are sorting it all out you can arrive at some pretty huge discoveries. I know of one person who is constantly putting on the handbrake to discover what it's all about for himself. He goes through stuff that I've never seen anyone else do with such depth. Today it is frowned upon to stop your life and to go within. It goes against everything we are taught during socialization. For we are expected, by everyone around us, to do what they are doing, and that is to keep going without asking any questions. I see people who are trying to uphold this charade on a daily basis. They see only certain things, be it on social media or in real life social situations. These individuals are so caught up in this system of survival that they really never see the whole picture. Now, there are arguments to that say, yes, we need to keep going to become the ultimate human. I'll just put this into perspective first. Some of us are riding this bike. We constantly have to keep moving to keep the balance. If we don't, we fall over. What is wrong with voluntarily stopping the bike and getting off ?

The bike in my eyes is truly an illusion. Yet we all take it for a ride, sometimes for our entire life. There are other people who create the bike lanes for us too. From my research these people are not really creating these lanes in our best interest, far from it. What they've created, is these lanes with "distraction" written all over them. And with distraction comes the same old opinions and the inability to think for ourselves. If we constantly follow the same lanes (which the majority do) how can we expect to see any positive new growth. It's like a rose bush, if you leave it to just do it's thing it just rots, and never produces new stunning flowers. But some people never see the similarity with the rose bush. They will prune and trim the rose bush for a better yield next year, but never do the same thing on themselves. WHY? If you were told to prune yourself for a better outcome next year would you do it ? I know I would, and I know I do. But actually doing it is frowned upon, because your'e not in the same bike lane as the masses. If you stop riding in this lane you will see a dramatic improvement in your well being. We all need to prune our roses and that means doing something you were never taught to do. "Get off the bike"

Have you ever filled your hair with paint and used it as a brush ? I have, but until you stop and disregard what others think, and stop listening to others, "Including Me" you will never know what it's like to be the true you. The you that never went away and the part of you that is never embraced, the part of you that will ride the bike for a small period, but will always jump off it and be curious, the part of you that you have buried, yet the part of you that really is the basis for all that you do in a grown up body. Do we all not have a thing within us that is actually in charge of us, and that is still fully operational today ? This thing may live in a grown up body, but is far from grown up. We are being lead by the same entities who behave in the same way. They want us riding the bike, yet they've forgot how to ride the bike. Will you ever stop the bike and go and play in the sandpit ? Where the roots of your existence reside. Can you get off the bike and rebuild the sandcastle ? What is stopping you from stopping, and looking into a fresh pruning for next year ? Do you know what I'm talking about ?

The Deluge

Some days are truly not the best. If you're in touch with how you feel and not distracted, you'll know what I mean. With all these vibrational changes occurring in September, the odd day can be a nightmare. All of this vibrational change, can be rather overwhelming and heavy to deal with. Sometimes it can feel as though you're going completely backwards. Is it that way ? Or does it just seem that way ? Everyone around me seems to be all over the place too. Are you ? I mean look at all the shit going on globally. We've got war, refugees, leadership changes all sorts of unsettling stuff. How do we feel our way through it all ? I know there's changes, yet many do not and do not realize their behavior is because of this shift. I believe most of us (who are open) realize that it's a nightmare ride. What I will say is, I'm totally sick of all of it.

I've spent considerable time looking at all of this and to my surprise there are a few who are aware, but there a far more that have no idea. They just continue on projecting their pain and not really gaining anything to help themselves. I try to encourage people to help themselves and that it's OK to be down or up. It's just how you feel, but you've got to be honest with yourself. People constantly contact me with their problems and it wears me out. I've got enough of my own shit to integrate. But how can you say no ? The drain on me is immense and it takes days to get over the onslaught. What pisses me off is when I rarely rely on people to help me, they find it hard to do so. They never have the time. And if they do, they will encourage you one minute, let you get stuff going only to hit you with the opposite.

Below is what is occurring now, how are you coping with the deluge ?

Using The +1 Button To Fully Engage - Really ?

The +1 social button, what a button ! It has so many meanings. But today I'm going to talk about it being used as an agreement button. (actually no, I'm just going to rant about it) It's like a button that kind of says "I agree with you totally, but I'm scared to get into a conversation about this important post for fear that others will challenge my opinion" or "I'm to lazy to comment" or "Whatever, I'll just +1 it " Why is this how things happen ? I post stuff that a lot consider to be "out there" or extremely tin foil hat Brigade ! What the fuck is that by the way ? Just quickly, my definition of those who use this term.

People who use that term are by my definition unable to think outside of their current socialized and programmed Minds. It's apparently an insult to those who use their mind and are able to see past the current delusion, that is the current paradigm of lies and deceit invented to enable those at the top to prosper. These individuals are asleep (the users of this term), and are only given just enough freedom to operate the machines. In other words the non questioner's.

Source - my thinking brain.

So back to the +1. I have found myself doing the same thing, where I will +1 a post and not comment, for fear of rocking the cart. Why do/did I do this ? Because I too was afraid of the consequences if I commented. Especially on posts if I knew no one. But after careful analysis of my own behavior towards this silly way of being, I came to the conclusion. If I don't comment, this post doesn't gain any momentum, especially if it's important and about the truth. I was scared too. And lazy. The reason I was like this is because "I do care what people think" we all do ! If you go around saying you don't, chances are you actually mean the opposite. This is how this shit works.

I can't write this blog without telling whoever reads it of my own mistakes or feelings or fears. How can I do that ? The only time people listen is when what they are hearing comes from honesty and the heart. I don't try to be this perfect entity. Far from it ! My life has been full of ups and downs like everyone else. All I've learned for myself, is that the more you dig yourself out of your own shit, the more you have the confidence to tell it how it is. I don't do games. Games are played among humans for only one reason - crippling internal pain ! We all have it. Because we were all taught to shut up and be controlled. And most of us have no idea how to integrate our shadow when it arises.

The +1 button is another way for you to not say what is on your mind. It's irrelevant ! It enables you to contribute, but by less than half. We have to stop using this button. It's been put there so you don't truly express how you feel. Sure, you have the ability to comment, but who actually does ? And what do you +1 ? Effectively nothing. It continues the path of saying nothing. Because that's what we've all been taught. I know this because the comment sections are full of shit that really is obvious that "we" don't know how to communicate properly. The comment sections can be so brutal and thus we then move into duality. Where we've been given this platform to fight among ourselves yet again. All the while, being totally distracted from what's really going on while we fight.

It begs the question, why do we actually have social media ?

Remember +1ing your local green grocer down the street because he had a ripe apple out the front of his shop ? NO !! It’s a made up thing. Who made this thing up and called it social ?

What happens for me is, I see notifications come through within that little bell, top right on all our devices. Oh look, there's 17 little bells, quick check out my popularity. I open the note draw only to find +1’s ! No comments, no conversation, nothing. The ratio can be 16 +1’s and 1 comment which is an emoji ! Yes, I +1 stuff too, but now I’m going to stop and engage with the person by saying “wow, that information was incredibly useful” or “wow, I need to look more into this, do you know anymore about this topic” But on some platforms I’ve asked those questions and been told I’m fucking useless for not Googling more information myself. “How can can you possibly be on Disqus if you don’t know how to find your own information by doing your own search ?” This is the sort of crap I’ve seen from just asking a straightforward question. Why is it all a competition ??? These assholes hammer you for being curious, yet these types of people are the first to have their heads buried in the sand, same as the “tin foil hat brigade” accusers. These people have no idea. Why can’t we ask a question ? It seems if you ask a question you are automatically put into this compartment as a loser. But hang on, why not engage and share information, nicely ?

The +1 button is a pause button, simple as that. It means nothing.

And one more thing for us to ponder.....the following statement - 

“+1, share and follow for more like this”......... What is that ??? 

It's the same as "Just sayin"......... What is that ???

Question Everything You Are Told

When we start to gather those around us for a common cause, life can be invigorating. We become part of a collective and we feel like we are moving forward to help others. We can get really excited and feel goodness coming forth from deep within. This is a feeling of great unity and with the unity comes a sense of achieving things and activating those who don't know, to bringing them forward also to join in the solidarity.

The events on the planet currently, are those of the complete and utter exposure of old paradigm thinking and existing. Stuff that has never come to the surface before, is now being shown in all it's glory. The disgusting glory of the darkness that is human behavior. We've had people like lance armstrong (sorry, I can't use capitals) who've lied to us for years about cheating not only us, but themselves also. 

We see mountains of corruption being exposed, within governments and all the systems that we have been programmed to trust. Even down to the church and it's vile abuse of children for hundreds of years. These are things that can never be denied. For this stuff to actually make it to main stream media is enough to "make" you ask the question - "How far does this stuff go ?" Well, in today's paradigm, you have the ability to look up anything whatsoever by using a new dictionary term called "Google it".

If you have some curiosity in your body or brain, to not be looking further into the darkness of the human, you are ignorant ! There is overwhelming evidence out there about more stuff that you may find unfair about your life, to embark on looking for the truth. If it's on mainstream media, its not correct. And the sooner you wake up to the brainwashing that's telling you stuff on the internet is the stuff that is lies, the better. How can we sit in front of our televisions and accept the crap that we are force fed as true. You have to question that when you have the topic, followed by false facts and then the outcome and the conclusion forced upon you that YOU are not using your brain.

We've become this yes sir thank you sir dumbed down species. Can you honestly tell me that what comes out of a politicians mouth you believe ?? No, you don't. How do I know this ? Because all people do is whinge about the president or the prime minister and the bullshit that comes out of their mouth. If this is the case, how on earth can you believe the utter crap that comes from your 6 o'clock news ? This whole thing is an illusion, and we have been forced to be passive in a world where slavery never disappeared. You are a slave. I have one statement to leave you with...

"In the age of information, ignorance is a choice"

Question everything you are told, even this blog........

Analyzing Your Itch

It's one of those days. Those ones where you've been fine for about a week and all of a sudden you arise from your bed and boom. You've held things together for that time, you've functioned normally according to society and conformed. But then, there's days like today where you are reminded that the whole thing is just ridiculous. Everything brings up emotions, the ones that are to never be allowed out according to the paradigm in which we currently reside. What the hell do you do ? Well I suppose I could go and participate in the clouded delusion and contribute to the economy by buying a cup of coffee, or supporting my local hardware multinational conglomerate by buying a letterbox from their letterbox section. Or, I could get some cheap fuel as its on sale today for the bargain basement price of $1.23 per litre. The barrel price is rather low at the minute, because its all about to crash, considering gold is going through the roof, but that's another matter. How about I do all of the above ?

Or alternatively, I could sit quietly and work out what is going on within my body, and hopefully decipher what emotion is being held back. After all, pain is just emotion not let out or openly expressed. I wonder what emotion it could be today ? Could it be that in doing all the crap that I do, there is no fulfillment ? No, I don't think so, because on the other days I'm fine. Today is just a "void" day. The "void" days are when your shit comes up, you have no control over this stuff. The only thing you have control over is the way you deal with it. I tend to confront the shit shadow head on on these days. I don't revert to drugs or alcohol to self medicate and reduce the pain nor have I ever. Pain is the byproduct of unexpressed emotions. Things that have to be explained to the self, analysed and integrated. Without our emotional guidance system we really get nowhere. Although, most don't even realize they have it.

Today is a day that sux. We all have them. I've had rats crawling under my skin today, its like an itch of complete overwhelm. My skin is red from scratching around my neck, and all over my head. What is it that is under my skin ??? It's the incessant longing to move on from this current realitymare. A complete and utter irritation from delays. I have not yet had the tap on the shoulder from "them". "They" are telling me to stay put for just a little while longer, but I'm dying. I know perfectly well, that staying a little longer is totally what I am supposed to be doing. Yet I arrive at these times with the utmost frustration only to find myself literally working it all out, while typing or writing how I'm feeling. This process, for me is the only way to look into this shadow void and work through it. Other times I will go and sit in my car and write in pencil in my little black and red books. It gets me through.

Are we, and do we have our own coping mechanisms for these "void" times ? I hope you do. Because for me, holding this emotion in is far worse than typing on a laptop and hitting the publish button. It goes out their, is cleansed and comes back to me every time. Yet while in the middle of it all there is no escape, and I start to type by pushing the keys through the laptop. But at the final full stop, for I know that I have changed my vibration enough so I'm on the mend and onto a different frequency. There's always more work to do though. It comes back late in the day, the itch. But now it's behind my knee's and in the inside of my elbows. Right in the crease of both areas, it's insane. Why does this happen ? It's all about one thing and one thing only, Stress. Do you sit down and work with and through your emotional guidance system and truly work out what it's telling you ? Or do you carry on and let it all boil up into one almighty bang ??

Wow, That Looks Great. No I Don't Want That

You show someone something amazing and they react to it with amazement and you say, you can have that too, and they say, "I don't want that !" Point blank, no curiosity whatsoever !

What the @#$% is that ?

This is a story about a photos app. An app that provides you amazing stuff for free. Not only is the app free, but so are the amazing things it gives you for free, based on how many photos you take. If you're like me, you embrace change. An ex girlfriend of mine always said "It's all about better". I've learned many amazing things from my ex girlfriends over the years, and I adore all of them and the lessons they taught me about me. Anyhow, moving on.....

Let's say you go and celebrate your sisters birthday and she comes with her son and husband. You take heaps of photos of your nephew etc. You get home, auto backup does its thing and the next day you start getting animations and collages from this app - for free. You love seeing the animations put together of your nephew and share them with another family member, who also loves seeing them.

Then you proceed to to say, for the 2nd time "You can have these come through to you also you know, and it's free" This person says to you, “I don't want that !" for the 2nd time.

What is that all about ? Why are people so anti having something that is better, yet love looking at the benefits of such a thing ? Just in writing this, I don't get why I'm writing about it ! The whole thing is truly absurd ! Why is better, worse ? Why is change for the better not embraced ? Why do people fear change ? Is change so catastrophic ? We live in a society of stagnation, it's truly insane ! What I'm happy about is that the current paradigm is shifting so rapidly that these outdated belief systems are just being left behind. For me this is proof that trying to educate an older baby boomer generation to think differently is a waste of my time and energy.

I've been doing an experiment with this recently. The minds of these people are so set in the Piscean age of masculine they will never recover. Yet the minds of our youth, who are more affected by the feminine Aquarian age are where we should start. The old way is on the way out. Go to the source of openness (the youth) and concentrate your efforts there. But only if your influence is coming from being between the 2 ages, for then you have the contrast of both, and are able to see the "better". No wonder the young don't listen to the old. The mindset is one of limited everything ! I've been working with the young for 20 years, they need a little guidance, sure. But they are only that way they are because of the people who've been teaching them. The ones that have no idea about the saying "It's all about better" In my experience, the best way to get young people thinking for themselves is to give them infinite encouragement......

You can't encourage the older generation with anything new, only more terror and fear. That's all they will listen too. They are the holders of this vibration. Their resistance to anything new forces me to ask the question "How did these people get to where they are now ?" Resistance is so strong with this generation. They vote for the same old shit, the eat the same old shit, their day consists of the same old shit... blah blah blah. Yet all around them is a plethora of change and newer and more amazing methods. I've come to the conclusion that these people are the biggest holding back mechanism of our time. They are the ones that hold the vibration of lack, non abundance and inner exploration from being true savors of the rest of us. It's all frowned upon. 

This affects all of us on the planet today. This vibration is here, on the planet, and still bringing us ALL down to this pathetic level. This mentality that better is unachievable let alone acceptable is madness. The sooner these dark, negative and emotional cripples go back to their star system the better. For these people, only when there is an illness (manifested from stress and fear of change) do they tinker with the possibility that there may be an app that helps them create more joy and embrace what it's all about, and that is......... Better !

Truly, these individuals, a whole generation or 2 or even 3, are the root cause of today's current paradigm. Fortunately the Universe is bigger than all of them put together and change will not just occur, it is already happening, and for the better. I'm so sick and tired of these holding you back and down attitudes. The cusp of this paradigm shift is upon us right now. It's going to get worse before it gets better..... Go with your heart and intuition and embrace the all of the Change and don't resist it.....

Stop And Inhale

You know what ? Sometimes when we are really flat and it's all just to much, we have to take a minute. A minute to just quickly forget about it all. Some things are just there, in front of us everyday, yet we don't see them. We can go and look at our shit anytime. What I do is go and sit in the sun if only for 10 minutes. I look at the blue sky, the clouds, my cat and many other things, and I breathe. Even in the middle of the biggest nightmares we can do this. I'm not taking away from those storms at all. All I'm saying is it is possible to remove ourselves from it all, if only for 10 minutes. Then, we can return to working through the shit again.

What this does for me is simply give me a reason to go back to the shit fight and maybe bring it to a close a little earlier. We just need that little break where we may quieten down just a tiny bit, to be able to have a change in vibration. It may not get us out of the hell, but consciously doing this may induce a change in vibration. And if that occurs we may find ourselves with just enough of a shift to redirect the way it was moving previously. And that is better than how it was before. So continue on your path and maybe stop for those 10 minutes and breathe. You never know how this may change YOU in dealing with the problem at hand....

Changing Tracks

The same old path, how do we do it ? The same old path that you are stuck in. It's predictable, comfortable, and there's no anxiety.....or is there ? Of course there is, because deep down you know that there is more to the current reality that you face. But will you look at it and ask yourself "What am I still doing going down this path ?" The anxiety that builds up over time is unbearable. We all think that the anxiety of doing something different is worse than the anxiety of staying put. It's not ! Once you go through this anxiety bubble to do something different and it pops, you realize very quickly the benefits of pushing through.

It far better to push through this crap than to stay put. You know how it works, you constantly have this thing building up inside you when you stay put. It's so subtle and the build up and pressure starts to come up in your emotions, usually the first one to arise is anger. Yet you don't really know where the anger has come from, it just creeps up all the time till it's let out again. How about instead of staying as an emotion suppressing specialist you move to the next track. Look at all the different paths below.... They are all different. Maybe just maybe, the path right next to the current one you find yourself in is just a touch better ?

Projecting Our Pain Onto Animals

Animals and the other animal (the human) have an interesting relationship. I'm not going to crap on about individual cases of cruelty. All I'm going to do is explain how "I see and feel it". Humans are in a lot of pain. And because we've never been taught, how to deal with our pain, we take it out on those things that are as innocent as we were, when our pain was inflicted. We revert back to our childhood nightmare of being socialized and abandonment by our parents. Our only way to deal with this pain, is to go back and project it out onto a living thing that we see in our subconscious has the same innocence as we did when we were hurt.

It's almost like a payback, and can only be paid back to those who are in the same position as the animal (the human). Frail, innocent, unable to defend itself, unable to speak up for itself and unable to express how it feels. The child, or in this case the Animal. Both have the same vibration. This occurs because we have this trigger that enables us to go back and do what was done to us, rather than explore the same area and realize why we behave the way we do. If we were to deal with the hurt and the neglect that we experienced back then now, there would be no need to project it onto animals. It's just a natural thing to compare these animals with ourselves because the Animal has the same qualities that we had when we were hurt. Especially their vulnerability. That's how we were, when we were hurt. This association with this same vibration is what makes it easier to do. Like attracts like. In other words, we can only inflict such wounds on a like entity, because us as the entity totally match the other. There is no judgement on what it actually is, it's the objects essence that is familiar. We are stuck in the void that was us when hurt, therefore can't project onto different levels of vibration, or beings in the same violent way.

The familiarity with inflicting on an animal becomes easier. It's the same vibration as us when we were wounded. In a sense we fight back with something that matches us at the time that our pain started to occur. If we are to look at society today, we can see this everywhere. The pain of not being able to cry as a baby or toddler because your parents say "don't cry" is insane. You quickly learn that so called good behavior is rewarded and bad behavior, like expressing your emotions (all of them) openly is not rewarded. So you suppress all of that so called negative stuff. This is the stuff that truly needs to be rewarded as it would become evident that the newly accepted openness is not frowned upon, thus bringing all of our pain out into the open without being judged. This is what counselling is. Open emotional communication, not frowned upon behavior according to society.

So here we see the suppressed pain playing itself out. The human effectively plays out all the masked emotion and abandonment that was inflicted as a child during socialization. It will always come out at some time in our lives. When, is the question. That will be determined by how much of what's going on around you allows you to hide it. But we all know, pain like anger cannot be held within for long. It will always be projected to those around you, especially the ones you love the most. And so the epidemic of animal cruelty continues, because the pain inside, eventually rears its head....

The animal is like the child. Innocent, beautiful, perfect. Yet we continue to abandon them (the child) through socialization and the promotion of the internalization of pain. We have to let this stuff out in safety because the pain that sits within us all, is the problem. A flower doesn't stay closed and continue to bloom, so why do we think we can without opening up properly. The big give away is this. People will harm children and animals always, because the association of the two takes us back to when we were first hurt. The key is dealing with your hurt before inflicting it onto someone that is a mirror of you internally. The internal struggle is the cry for help that is manifested and thus projected from the wounded inner child onto the similar thing. At the end of the day, we are ALL banging around this planet as little children emotionally. This is the inner child, that screams for attention and love. Maybe this is the trigger for you to commence true self love, and surrender to your inner little girl or boy within, and listen to what they have to say. Trust me, I do........

These photos are from a camping trip I did last year. This campsite is right next to the beach. I was there for 4 days dealing with my shit, my inner child and all of my dark shadow that was rearing it's head at the time. These Kangaroo's came to me on the 2nd day. The reason they did this on the 2nd day was because my vibration was to low for them to approach any earlier. It wasn't till I'd done a really long walk on the beach that day and cleared my shit and listened to my inner child tell me what I needed to hear, that they would entertain the thought of coming closer. No food was offered, no way ! By the 4th day they'd come around much earlier and much closer. These animals, like all animals, know where you are at vibrationally. So can you fathom what an animal picks up before being abused by it's abuser or attacker ? 

Is This The Epitome Of Happiness ?

The man in this picture is what I consider to be a wonderful example of the way we should all be in the pursuit of happiness. He controls the biggest mass mind controlling multinational corporation on the planet, for those of you who don't know, its called News Corp. He's been growing his happiness for many years now. And you can clearly see how wonderfully joyous he is here, pictured in yet another acquisition of more television rights of another sporting code. Now Rupert has explained to us his humbleness in front of a UK inquiry, into phone tapping and all sorts of stuff recently. I wonder what actually became of that inquiry ? Never mind......

Is what we are seeing in this wonderfully attractive photo of this man, the definition of happiness ? "Of course it is" Rupert has done what we all believe to be the true and honest way to achieve this phenomena. He's gone after money ! Cos money and the chase for more makes you happy, as clearly defined in this photo. This is how I want to be. Looking like Rupert. This photo shows how you look when you become happy, because as I stated before, this is what Rupert has devoted his life to. The pursuit of money, because money makes you happy.

How about I turn off my sarcasm helmet for a moment ?

For me, when you're happy you don't generally have that upside down smile. It's that smile that most public figures have, where the corners of the mouth turns downward instead of up. Yeh, have another look below. This guy has spent all his life trying to acquire more money. If I was looking like this at his age from the side effects of wealth gathering and controlling the minds of newspaper readers and television watchers, I'd probably think to myself while looking in the mirror every morning "Holy shit, I look like shit" But for Rupert, it's all in a days work. He has his own dunnie (toilet) in his office and probably sees himself numerous times a day, and yet can't see the inverted smile. Why ? Because even he can't see past the brainwashing and constant pursuit of happiness smoke screen. He's actually become affected by the same brainwashing agenda he allows his editors to write about. There's this huge belief that all this stuff makes you happy. He's running from his shadow like a drug addict to the next hit. He's addicted to the drug of his choice, money. Cos we all know, that money makes you happy.

I wonder when was the last time he strolled on grass with bare feet ? I wonder when was the last time he dove into the ocean ? Does it really matter ? When you believe you can fly..... I actually feel for this man ironically. In all my years and seeing him in public, I've never seen him laugh. Isn't laughing a sign that you indeed are happy ?

I have to be honest with you, I started writing this firstly to put this man down. But as I wrote more, I became rather empathic towards Rupert. I don't like seeing myself writing aggressively against someone in particular. I'm genuinely feeling for this guy as he goes on and on in the pursuit of his joy. If I had a chance to meet him, I'd take him down to the park and walk with him and talk with him about his beliefs in what compassion is for example. Because once you have someone with their feet on the earth, they find it really hard to lie. I think I'd say to him "Rupert, compared to what you have, I have nothing. Yet I have a proper smile" I wonder what he'd say ?