We join our social sphere at birth. We spend the first 7 years being socialized. We go through our education, and then we are cast out into the place called society, but this time we are on our own. We see things that we agree with from our training, and we see things that our training never showed us. Sometimes after many years of not really fitting in to the mold, we question lots more than we accept. We move through these times looking and feeling our way. Yet, it never really feels right. We pretend we are strong, yet we long to be vulnerable. We want things to be different. None of it really makes any sense, so we wait. We continue to allow the pain to build up, which is usually expressed externally as anger. Anger is perfectly normal, and totally ok. It's the learning how to let it out quietly by yourself that is the trick. Guess what ? You were never socialized to know how to do this. Why ? Because ALL negative emotions NEVER get you praise. Unlike good emotions, where you are praised completely and ALL the time.
We allow those around us to walk all over us, and push their pain onto us. We also do the same, but most of us will ever admit to that ! We abandon ourselves by running to joy. Reason....because we are not happy with who we are. We don't fit in to the crowd, therefore we do all in our power to measure up to those who also don't really fit in. It's all an illusion ! We allow this to happen for years, hoping, praying that this insecure feeling will part. It will only part when we finally come to the conclusion that "we must surrender". Surrender is an interesting word. It basically means if you do so, you are far from good enough. Remember your socialization ? You must keep going ! If you don't, society see's you as a quitter. This is bullshit !! Surrender comes when you are nearly gone completely. You now, can hit the reset button, you've arrived at the word below....... And surrender to YOU
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