The Reverse Direction

Have you ever surrendered ? It’s all to hard, things just suck, nothing going right. What do you do ? Is it possible to just say “I’m done ?”. Well yes, it is. When you arrive at a time where everything you’ve tried has become a dead end, this is when you need to do this. In fact more pain is induced by 'not' doing this. But who does this voluntarily ? The initial pain barrier to break through is only ego. Once you’ve pushed through this, the first time, and realized you’re not going to die, you can do it again. But in saying that, each time this occurs the only thing that allows you to believe it’s possible, is the fact that you’ve done it before, and succeeded . But its a faint realization, because going through the doors again, seems so ridiculous, pain ridden and horrifying.

Do most even realize they have a shadow ? There seems to be this mass migration to joy. In other words, “running from our shadow”. The place where all the work we do chasing joy can be dealt with but in a much easier fashion, but is it ? It’s taboo, even completely frowned upon to change your ways and go in the opposite direction of joy. Until we look into this ourselves we judge it, we say “how the hell are you going to achieve happiness in your shadow ?” And is it actually happiness ? Does that word actually exist ? It’s all about “undoing”, not doing. 

It’s so obvious to me when someone has a mask on. We see this all the time now, people not wanting to be who they are. So they change their face with the surgeons knife. This has nothing to do with looking better. One minute you see them, the next its “is that so and so ?…..nooooo” The only reason this industry is actually alive is because the insecurity of just being who you are is not good enough in today's wonderful and accepting society. But this is an extreme example.

Do we think that this sort of behavior is considered surrender ? I know I don’t ! These people will never surrender, its in their nature to remain with the mask held up to the world. In fact, it’s the opposite to surrender, it’s going in the direction of joy, their joy that is an illusion, which is actually a never ending, unwinnable pursuit. It will never end. If you stop, look at yourself and really listen to what is occurring within, you can make a decision. Stop and feel you. What do you say to ‘you’ when its quiet and dark ? Be honest. Where are you really going in your external pursuit of this thing we call joy ?

What eventually happens is that after years of trying for joy a little realization comes up. You get to a point where you finally realize that ……

“Nothing makes you happy”

Now.....I realize that many of you will think that this is insane ! But when you think about this you can kind of come to terms with the fact that you can never have happiness, ALL the time. So why pretend that you do ? Pretending just sets you up for disappointment. "But they are always happy, I want to be like them". "They" and "them" are not happy ! That's their mask that you see. When we arrive at this huge realization, that happiness is a never ending chase, we can actually admit to ourselves that we've been pulling our own leg. And things really begin to improve for the better, that’s if you’re not afraid of your darkness……..