How Have You Been Affected ?

Looking down onto this time space reality I'm seeing many things at the moment. First is this huge influx of souls beginning to realize that all is not what it seems. The excitement of exposing the truth for the first time for these souls is really amazing. They wonder where they've been for all of this life projection. It's everywhere on the media that provides them with the ability to look into it further. Yet, many, because of the distraction and overwhelm are overlooking the key issues. And this is understandable, for when you are asleep and you wake up, you tend to get rather excited. The information that has at first completely terrified them, then becomes a constant push for more dark information. Some refer to this as truth. The truth is magnificent, yet there are fundamental flaws in obtaining it. Once the quest starts, or the awakening, whatever you prefer to call it, things can become a little blanketing. What I mean is, to much of this truth will inevitably get you to a point where you stand back from it all and say to yourself "This is to much for me to handle"

I don't care as to where you are at in your birthing  period, to all souls, the constant negative can be very destructive. It is like before the awakening, all souls are whining about all of their stuff. This never ends. Then they discover this thing called the law of attraction. This phenomena is merely like vibration oscillating with like vibration. So as people move into this area they see all of these little things that "they" have asked for. Then they are left to there own devices to practice acquiring car spaces and the like. This is fun for a while and makes them feel as though they are in control of their lives. Great ! Social media becomes a place to share their experiences, yet souls tend to be tuning with the ego based approach. I see many arguing about certain points of view. To the point where most if not all these souls have become so good in the knowledge that they will argue their case. This is where is still see the duality. Arguing over stuff that is irrelevant.

Quite frankly these souls are not truly getting this wake up call. The comment sections in social media, I believe, are designed to have these souls fighting and bickering with each other. This is common practice with the total and utter control of the human being. Everywhere I look is this fight against each other. This has been widely observed by myself. Keep them fighting among themselves and they will be distracted. Even when they believe they are waking up. It's bullshit ! The obvious thing now is, why does the soul argue ? Is it because of it's socialization ? How long does it take to unlearn, unravel and undo the nightmare that is this socialization ? This is the most destructive thing known to man. It does not allow you to think for yourself. One example is this stupid question.... "How are you ?" When was the last time you actually answered that question with complete honesty ? So we mask over this question and we say with false enthusiasm "I'm fine". What the fuck does that mean ? 

You're not fine and you know it ! Why do you lie ? Why  do you not express how you truly feel ? Here's a good answer to that question. "I'm totally trashed, this energy is getting me down and I'm also struggling to let my anger out of my body therefore I have cramps in my chest"  What is wrong with telling it how it is ? Instead of arguing about stuff on social media and attaining this higher level of intelligence because you think you know more about a specific topic, why not work together and talk about the shit that really consumes the soul ? Quite frankly the masks that are on social media are insane. The old way of greeting one another has actually gone out the window. I've noticed of late, that when greeting people "live" they actually have difficulty in expressing a real hello. I believe that this is social media's fault yet again. Souls can abuse the fuck out of each other in a comment section, yet not even know how to engage with each other face to face. I believe social media has been developed by those who control us to give this false voice, and these devices that truly are here to dumb us down. That has become dramatically evident with the caliber of intellectual conversation. Then there's the "like" or "+1". What the fuck do these things actually mean ?

The cost of the September influx of energy has seen this increase in the expelling of truth. This truth stuff is just coming out in massive waves, unfiltered or organized. It's hitting ALL aspects of the planet. It wasn't just September, for if you feel deeply, the rise in the vortex for months leading up to it, contained these homeopathic doses that got many souls used to what was coming. But nothing could really brace the cosmos for the hangover of this injection of consciousness. The lead up was insane and the ensuing integration is insane. It's an ongoing process, that is deep seated and that I believe will take quite sometime to be developed. In other words, will the dust settle and when ? The dust may have been blown up in the winds that came through, to change certain perspectives and souls will embrace the feelings from within. But, will this engage them in the actual work that is necessary ? I see that the external is still being relied upon to create this phenomena called happiness also. This is of concern I believe, for the internal trauma is merely being projected out right now which in turn creates this spiral of anger and other emotions that really do no good for the mass soul collective. What it does is create more disharmony. I also believe that these projections will be hard to move through. The energy is that of density. To move into the realms of lightening the load on our shoulders, these frequencies are the only way forward. And the only thing you can do is to attempt to deal with it on your own.

The work we do on ourselves will determine how this all develops. Will the collective understand the next step ? Or will they just jump together to embrace all that has been exposed. There comes a time when nothing you see shocks you anymore and the more data you receive the more you are driven to go within. These devices that are given to us as wonderful pieces of technology are actually being used against us. They are being sold to us on a number of levels. Planned obsolescence, to buy more, consume more. Give all your information to a company, be told where you parked your car. All these things are sold to us, as making our lives easier, whereas they are not ! They are overwhelming the minds of us all. They are creating confusion and brain clogging in a massive fashion. Not only that, the actual electromagnetic waves associated with the use of them are completely controlling us. All you have to do is look at this link to realize what is actually happening http://www.stopthecrime.net/docs/SILENT.pdf

This will blow your mind

The Noncomfortable Persists

It's still going. This incredible place of "Noncomfortableness" is still pushing up and through. Librans are having a hard time at the moment. Every day at the same time, after midday the energy rises. It comes in many forms, from itching, anxiety, frustration and all round agitation. It's been going on for days now and I'm slightly over it. You try to feel whats coming up as shadow, and face it head on for the process of integration. But it doesn't seem to be that at all. It's more energetic. It's like the sun reaches the peak in the day and once it's past a certain point it all begins again. These drastic knowings of an energy shift are becoming more easy to pick up as my sensitivity climaxes. I really don't know if that's a good thing at all. It can be a double edge sword as some of us know. To feel so deeply and acutely is both a blessing and a curse. Even typing this I want to push my fingers through the keyboard !

I have the house to myself also. That could be a contributing factor too. The utter shit can come up, and out and I can just scream it all out. The clothes basket lies in the corner, it's truly ruined, which actually makes me chuckle. I don't even know what I'm writing really, it's crap that comes from where my fingertips hit the keyboard. You can lay your bullshit out and post it into the nothingness that is the internet. I have no problem hitting publish at all. Quite the contrary, it's rather liberating to see your words and unexplained crap disappear into the web. The only way to be someone who can guide others, is to have put your own body through the shit that the person you're helping may never experience. I've found that by going deeper, much deeper you equip yourself for anything that is exposed by others in their meltdowns and energetic shifts.

For with experience comes knowledge and expertise. Stuff you can't go to any school to learn. You must bury yourself in your own pain. I mean really bury yourself. You have to make the conscious decision to go in that direction. And it's not an easy one. To go within takes courage, because the bullshit you go through in facing yourself and your shadow is truly like being skinned alive from within. How many of us truly take the time to do this work ? I know of only a few. And they are the people who are here to help others in moving through their pain whilst on the inward path. It's not a nice place, and you will never get it done......ever. But you accumulate the tools to help you get through each purge. Which in turn enables you to guide others through their difficulties.

But I must say, this particular purge is a fucking nightmare. I'm not fully aware of what it's all about yet, but I will be laying it all out here. Here is my space that I go when I can't feel my way through the void moment like now, and for the last few days. The new moon is a nightmare, that is one aspect, as for the other stuff coming up, I'm yet to decipher. I hope that this crap is being integrated and that I will pull through. I really don't even know why I typed that. The universe only gives me what I can handle, and it seems that all the void moments of late have slipped by the wayside as soon as they are dealt with . It's nice to wake up in the morning knowing a certain trigger has gone through to the cosmos and past by me. Taking all of my current crap with it. So we will see, if tomorrow brings some respite to the internal blades and their spiral of healing...

You know those days that give you trauma. The ones that bring things up that are not comfortable at all ? Well, that was yesterday. The cosmos had allowed great anger to breach the surface. My biggest problem was allowing it to get out fully, and safely in today's limiting earth plane. For that particular emotion is frowned upon, especially if expressed outwardly. The difficultly lies in the expression of it. To let anger out is a complete no no in this time space reality. For if you do, you are chastised. Anger must be released, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with letting it exit your your vibration. You will see the change in vibration, nearly immediately.

I had a lot more to rid myself of than I originally thought. I wrote about it yesterday and the force of it emerging was far greater than I had imagined. I went straight past the pegs on the line with the washing, and ended up completely destroying the clothes basket. It's hard to complete the process when there are those around you, who don't believe letting emotion out is acceptable, so I had to do it quietly. Even my dry clothes became victims of my rage. Throwing them around and kicking them as hard as I could. The basket is now unusable and will be a reminder of the intensity of this particular shift.

Anger, is a wonderful emotion. It enables us to completely realize where we are at. I would go as far as to say, it is the most incredible gauge and automatically tells us that we are straying form the correct path. Maybe this is why it's frowned upon, for it gives you the utmost clarity once released from the soul. It enables all that crap to be expelled, that crap that has built up over weeks or even months. For me it is an incredible jump up in my awareness once exhumed. It will destroy us if its not let out to the cosmos. We all have it in varying degrees, it just happens with all that surrounds us during these massive shifts.

The key is this.....Get it all out ! Pick your quiet and private place, where there's no one around, because having to censor your rage to accommodate someone else won't work. The entirety of the emotion will not be oozed out of your cells unless you have your space. You have to find a spot of your own where you can be vulnerable, and exposed to the depths of the pain. As I found yesterday, I could not let it all out because of other people. So what happened is it came to the fore later on. And with greater force. Once you've opened that pressure valve, it all wants to come rushing out, and the key is to let it.

So today I find myself quite joyful after the barrage of this so called bad emotion. Things have shifted dramatically and I'm also lighter. I'm not sure how long that explosion had been building for ? But what I will say is this.... Imagine if we were all allowed to express this thing called anger. Imagine if we all had our own little anger pods where we could go and release. There is absolutely nothing wrong with expressing this emotion, and draining toxicity from your soul. If done correctly, like I have explained for me, you too can accomplish the drain of pent up Anger in safety in your own beautiful way. And as the bird below suggests, move on to the next purge.

Allowing Anger To Dispel Quietly

Do we ever get to the center of it all ? Today has been a day of consolidation, a day of much emotional charge. You can have these days where the only way through is to push like you've never pushed before. Today is one of those. September brought with it a massive hangover of the energetic kind. The whole month leading up to the end, was just intense. It was all about the full and deep integration of stuff that many of us had never felt before. There was a lot of doomsday bullshit floating around as well. To me those doomsdayers really don't understand whats going on. And expose themselves and their limited knowledge. They also make it harder for those who do know what is actually going on. They make the ones who truly know what is happening, look like idiots with the wonderful saying "Guilty by Association" Because the outside, asleep world loves a tin foil hat.

So today is this dark and anger lead energy. It's like a purge from all the cosmic energy that attended and infiltrated the earth on the 28th. There are many of us out there who are completely aware as to what has occurred, and even we are struggling with the shift. This is completely acceptable. There was so much going on. Today for me has been filled with these ups and downs of anger and frustration. It's like a massive integration and also letting go of the toxicity we allow within ourselves. We let it build up which is completely ok. It's not easy to let out your anger within society today. If you are noticing anger all around you, you are no doubt holding onto some yourself. Anger is the harshest emotion, it is the hardest one to express because of our socialization. It's frowned upon to let it out and let go of. Pretty amusing really when you look at the state of projection the world over.

I don't let the internal anger within me get to far down the track. It builds up, you all know what I'm talking about. But the non release of it manifests in such dark areas and we see the overflow daily. Imagine being able to let yours out without a barrier. I can imagine that, because I do. I just finished hanging the clothes out on the line on my own, but it was no ordinary hang out. I snapped pegs, stretched sox, and pushed those pegs onto the clothes until they snapped. And now, I can write very calmly on my blog, because the anger is gone. It won't be the last time either. When they're dry I'll probably throw the pegs into the peg basket so hard that they will break too. And instead of folding the clothes, I'll stuff them into the basket. The best way to let your anger out, is by yourself, every time. For now I'm relaxed, and don't need any further release......Until they're dry, and this is when I know it's expressed, not held in to be projected onto others. Pretty simple really.

The Abandonment Continues

What is it about the current paradigm of abandonment parenting today ? I watch as a child is left in his cot clearly unhappy, uncomfortable and just wanting to be held by it's mother. He's coughed for his entire afternoon nap, and has had no real sleep. The choice to continue this game of "He'll eventually go to sleep" utterly disgusts me. Why is it that this child is rewarded for being a good boy, meaning "go to sleep because that's what good boys do" ?? Yet is put into a place of being a bad boy because he doesn't want to sleep, he just wants to be held and around people. Not only that, when he finally emerges his relatives then smother him to the point that their energy completely engulfs him. This wears him out. He has to first deal with NO attention, then MORE attention than he actually wants. Ironic isn't it that 5 minutes before they were all happy to give him NO attention.

Parenting these days only produces one thing. The same crap it produced the generation before. So now we find ourselves dealing with another abandoned child (the parent), who is now projecting the same sort of trauma onto the new generation. This abandonment comes in all shapes and sizes. The child soon realizes that he will be praised for acceptable behavior and penalized for so called "bad behavior". This all according to the society and deep socialization that takes place between 1 and 7. What a nightmare !!! If a child is crying, it is for a very good reason. Pick the child up and love it. Don't allow it to be abandoned and become the exact replica of it's parent. It makes me sick to the stomach to witness this behavior. And I see it over and over again. Abandonment causes what you are currently seeing in the world today. 

God knows what its doing to the child's heart. But then again, we all know what it's really doing don't we..........because EVERYTHING that we deal with on an adult level is the inner abandoned child, and it occurs deep within us all EVERYDAY..... 

Riding The Bike

Sometimes life stays still while observing things. Sometimes while you are sorting it all out you can arrive at some pretty huge discoveries. I know of one person who is constantly putting on the handbrake to discover what it's all about for himself. He goes through stuff that I've never seen anyone else do with such depth. Today it is frowned upon to stop your life and to go within. It goes against everything we are taught during socialization. For we are expected, by everyone around us, to do what they are doing, and that is to keep going without asking any questions. I see people who are trying to uphold this charade on a daily basis. They see only certain things, be it on social media or in real life social situations. These individuals are so caught up in this system of survival that they really never see the whole picture. Now, there are arguments to that say, yes, we need to keep going to become the ultimate human. I'll just put this into perspective first. Some of us are riding this bike. We constantly have to keep moving to keep the balance. If we don't, we fall over. What is wrong with voluntarily stopping the bike and getting off ?

The bike in my eyes is truly an illusion. Yet we all take it for a ride, sometimes for our entire life. There are other people who create the bike lanes for us too. From my research these people are not really creating these lanes in our best interest, far from it. What they've created, is these lanes with "distraction" written all over them. And with distraction comes the same old opinions and the inability to think for ourselves. If we constantly follow the same lanes (which the majority do) how can we expect to see any positive new growth. It's like a rose bush, if you leave it to just do it's thing it just rots, and never produces new stunning flowers. But some people never see the similarity with the rose bush. They will prune and trim the rose bush for a better yield next year, but never do the same thing on themselves. WHY? If you were told to prune yourself for a better outcome next year would you do it ? I know I would, and I know I do. But actually doing it is frowned upon, because your'e not in the same bike lane as the masses. If you stop riding in this lane you will see a dramatic improvement in your well being. We all need to prune our roses and that means doing something you were never taught to do. "Get off the bike"

Have you ever filled your hair with paint and used it as a brush ? I have, but until you stop and disregard what others think, and stop listening to others, "Including Me" you will never know what it's like to be the true you. The you that never went away and the part of you that is never embraced, the part of you that will ride the bike for a small period, but will always jump off it and be curious, the part of you that you have buried, yet the part of you that really is the basis for all that you do in a grown up body. Do we all not have a thing within us that is actually in charge of us, and that is still fully operational today ? This thing may live in a grown up body, but is far from grown up. We are being lead by the same entities who behave in the same way. They want us riding the bike, yet they've forgot how to ride the bike. Will you ever stop the bike and go and play in the sandpit ? Where the roots of your existence reside. Can you get off the bike and rebuild the sandcastle ? What is stopping you from stopping, and looking into a fresh pruning for next year ? Do you know what I'm talking about ?

The Deluge

Some days are truly not the best. If you're in touch with how you feel and not distracted, you'll know what I mean. With all these vibrational changes occurring in September, the odd day can be a nightmare. All of this vibrational change, can be rather overwhelming and heavy to deal with. Sometimes it can feel as though you're going completely backwards. Is it that way ? Or does it just seem that way ? Everyone around me seems to be all over the place too. Are you ? I mean look at all the shit going on globally. We've got war, refugees, leadership changes all sorts of unsettling stuff. How do we feel our way through it all ? I know there's changes, yet many do not and do not realize their behavior is because of this shift. I believe most of us (who are open) realize that it's a nightmare ride. What I will say is, I'm totally sick of all of it.

I've spent considerable time looking at all of this and to my surprise there are a few who are aware, but there a far more that have no idea. They just continue on projecting their pain and not really gaining anything to help themselves. I try to encourage people to help themselves and that it's OK to be down or up. It's just how you feel, but you've got to be honest with yourself. People constantly contact me with their problems and it wears me out. I've got enough of my own shit to integrate. But how can you say no ? The drain on me is immense and it takes days to get over the onslaught. What pisses me off is when I rarely rely on people to help me, they find it hard to do so. They never have the time. And if they do, they will encourage you one minute, let you get stuff going only to hit you with the opposite.

Below is what is occurring now, how are you coping with the deluge ?