Into The Zone After The Light

Night fall. That time where some of us become more comfortable. That time when you can hear "them" clearly. You can properly interpret the code. The code of the true self. The vibration of humanity has silenced temporarily for you to gather your thoughts. You can truly be creative without the white noise. That epidemic of hum, that pierces the soul, disturbs it and leaves us totally off balance.

Night time, is in truth the best time. The day becomes so dark with its confusion and personal interruption and disruption. The night does the opposite. It brings some of us calmness and contentedness, a time where the injection of humanity wears off. It's a time of great alertness and sensitivity. With sensitivity comes clarity, clarity to debug the nightmare that is the day. Some will never feel this phenomena, let alone be able to embrace it.

Do you crave, the going down of the big red charge, that emanates from that huge sphere ? I do......

An Outsiders Perspective.

What are you feeling ?
Do you feel a shift at all ?
Do you sit and ponder about it all ? And think to yourself  "What on earth am I doing here ?"
Why do you find it hard when you are alone at night ? You know, you are at home, and your mind has had a chance to slightly calm down. What is it that concerns you ? Do you realize that, your brain has been overwhelmed with far to much information and stimulation ? Yet all this information and stimulation, means absolutely nothing.

It's been given to you, by those who would prefer you, to just be in an operational state, just enough to run the machines. Not to question anything, oh no ! You find yourself catching up with a few acquaintances on social media. That will help you solve your shit, so you think. But really, there is that underlying issue of emptiness. That void of not being truly for filled throughout your working day. And the realization that you have to do it all again in a matter of hours. Would you ask yourself this question ?

Why is this occurring in my life ?

Surely, there is more. Why can you only see what they want you to see ? What if you turned on a light within yourself ? What then ? Could you see things that were not so obvious ? Just by looking from a different perspective could you see through the darkness and confusion ? If you turn on a black light you can see more, as demonstrated in the image below.

So why not turn on your black light and find the answers to those questions you ask yourself every night before you start the ball rolling again in a matter of hours ?

The Search !

The fleeting moments where you crave that little feeling, that feeling that you want to last forever. It hounds you constantly to get more of it. You try all day and hope that every morning you get it again when you open your eyes. But it doesn't come, not how you want it to come. It's a feeling that you really are addicted to. You're told to go in search of it constantly, to no avail. We see the people going for it all the time in various different ways.

They push for it all the time, the thing. The feeling, only to be dissapointed constantly, like they've failed. Yet on a TV you can get a snippet, or a shopping mall, or a social media site or what ever really. But, you always fail. There's pressure to get this feeling and if you fail, well....you are a failure, but don't worry, you will be reminded that you can do it again. You will also be reminded that you must strive for it in any way you can, because if you don't you will be left out.......of failing, only to join the merry go round yet again.

We see it everywhere. The quest, the search. They think that by being invited to something that's exclusive that it will give it to them. They think that the launch of something new will give it to them. What's hilarious is that they think that because it hasn't arrived yet they can get pissed off. I find it hilarious that not getting something that you never actually had can cause so much discontent. It's like losing money on a house. Apparently if you sell your house you can get this feeling too. But not if you can't get thousands of dollars more than what you paid. That's apparently called loosing money. Now, really, if you never had that money how can you lose it ? This is a rather large contributor to not getting that feeling.

I've actually seen people do this. But if it goes the other way, well.....that feeling comes, apparently. But for how long I wonder ?

So......do we crave this thing ? And if so why is it so sought after ? I mean everything wears off eventually right. It has to doesn't it ?

Lets look at 2 things, things that are kind of neutral. They don't really get put into a category, they kind of have their own identities, yet they are overlooked so much. 

Black & White !!

We want this kind of "White" thing, but really don't want this "Black" thing. You could also call them Sunrise and Sunset. Or, High tide and Low tide. Or, In and Out. Or, Open and Closed. The list goes on and on and on.....So if we like the Sunset only, what happens ? But what if we like the Closed ? Or the High Tide ? What then ???? Does that mean that we only have these things but not their opposites ?

Well guess what, "NO WAY" you can not avoid the opposite at all.

So why is it that we go full steam ahead in the pursuit of one feeling only ? We know the universe can not and will not give us "ONE" of these things only, and yet I see so many going after that one feeling and ignoring the opposite. It really makes me laugh ! If you don't embrace both you really can't have either can you....

Until you realise that "NOTHING" will give you this feeling without the other you will constantly be looking for it externally, and trust me, it doesn't come from anything external at all. In fact it doesn't come at all until you turn around and face your own opposite head on and thoroughly feel that.

3.1 Months !

As you can gather, I'm not done here yet. Today is a windy and cold yet the sun is beaming, beaming a few ray's on me as I type, smoke and ingest tea. 

I think images invoke major emotions within us, hence my migration back to Tumblr. The people I follow there are not ashamed to show themselves and their feelings very freely. They all post wonderful loving things and also things to help you awaken faster. They help each other, they love each other and they don't really argue or judge someone they don't know from a bar of soap. I find this extremely attractive. It seems to be a place where you can go for a little salvation. They don't speak in comments, they just send Vibes that resonate with me in particular. I love that.

Images like the one above. It's completely stunning ! And for me the colours and beams of sunlight are very soothing. And then we have the mermaid, the beauty associated with a mermaid we all know about. Why is it that we "think" that life has to be this fucking thing that is finite ? I'm not afraid of going, in fact what I see here constantly reminds me, that these so called lessons and things I agreed to learn when I came in are almost done. What I see and feel here, the vibration of it all, really begs the question.....who will be around to see consciousness in a new state ? When the old paradigm fucks off and the new begins. We are in transition now, and transition kind of sux, any transition from the corruption we see now and the oozing out of this most unfair and disgusting way of being into "all" being one. I fucking can't wait for this !! The complete role reversal of the assholes at the top of the pyramid, being at the bottom, and the "people" being at the top. Can you imagine the weirdness of having a "bankster" asking you how to light a fire, or how do you get this solar panel thing to power my light bulb !! I can !! 

This is the thing. This spiral......to me, represents how it's all going at the moment. For me it is a spiral upwards. An upwards motion, that if you feel properly, and don't deny your ability, to be a being that has, emotion and an internal and external guidance system. This spiral you will magnetized to. Or.... it's quite obvious, you are so entrenched in the old paradigm, you will go in the downwards motion in this spiral... Never to be seen again. That's what I'm looking forward to seeing. These downward dwellers, we all know who they are, will be sucked down this vortex like emptying the bath. The best thing at the moment is that all of this is happening rather quickly and the momentum is gaining pace incredibly fast ! And I'm loving that !!

Look at these colours (above)......What do they do to you ? For me at the moment, these sorts of greens and purples are so fucking intense. They give me some sort of content feeling, a feeling that it's all ok. Maybe it has something to do with the below picture ? I think so !!!

"eleutheromania" "Mania" being the optimum word here !! Freedom, where does this come from ? For me, it's saying fuck you, I'm out of this particularly dense vibration. This happens a lot for me. I'm sorry but when it get's like this, I have to go again. I'm not running from things, not at all. Because when I go, I've been putting myself through the crap to a point that the lessons are fully downloaded to my internal flash drive. And fuck me, can that flash drive hold some GB ! So many in fact, that it takes the first 6 months at that new space to de-encrypt and process all of it. Sometimes longer. What shits me is people saying you're running away !! Quite the contrary. When you are in the classroom you load the lessons, it's not till you leave, that you ingest it and plow through it all...........Running away !!! Fuck off !!!

Yep, thank you people. Those who don't listen are those who will be asking soon, and wondering why they never listened ! So funny.....................

Normal........................You Can Have It !!!!!!!!!

so.....3.1 Months, what has been discovered ? For me......... "Only do what feels right"

3 Months !

3 Months has accumulated since that day. The day that started with adrenalin, and excitement, and relief, and the thoughts of "Thank fuck that's over" but now.............those feelings have gone and I'm left bereft. 

Yet in 3 Months what has happened ? Well on days like this one I ask myself this question. It feels like nothing, nothing at all except losing the fantasy. The fantasy that was, "This is It".....finally we can settle and be a team and individuals at the same time. I was so full of optimism. I'd worked my ass off doing what I dislike for 3 Months (how bizarre, didn't see that coming) and was ready, ready as I'll ever be for this commitment. A commitment to her.

Fantasy is rather funny isn't it ! Fantasy takes us to new possibilities, love, inner love, and places that are lovely. I think fantasy is magnificent, sometimes it fully manifests, sometimes it doesn't. I guess today I'm in what I call a "VOID" moment, they suck, they hurt, you question fucking all ! So that's why I'm typing, for me, no one else, just a record of a shit vibration that has overcome me today. 

I have events coming up shortly that quite frankly couldn't give a shit about. All I wish at the moment is to be in a place where I can delve deeper into my own crap safely. Some have said to me that it doesn't matter where you are, but "I" need the proper energy and vibration to be able to truly bury myself in my shit and let it pierce every fiber of me. It's got to be a place where I feel safe. This current location is not that space !

I have selected places on this planet that allow me to heal, they're on meridians and grids, and here is not one of them. I don't know what is holding me here right now, I have a car, I have my swag with a quilt, a pillow and blankets, paint and brushes to earn money so I can be part of the illusion etc etc. What am I doing still here ? I have the freedom to go anywhere yet I stay, mostly to please others and yes "my own fear". I know all about this "others" crap, it's been the bane of my existence for many years. Conforming ! We all do it !!! 

So what am I scared of ? I think the "learn" (yes the programming) that has been forced on me over the last 42 years is what gives us fear. Oh no, money, job, consume, tax, how will you eat, blah blah blah. This is what creates the fear ! I've just racked off before, many times, it's fucking amazing to travel not knowing where you are going.....The Best, it's when I'm at my best !!!! Even my fucken psychologist tells me to stop running away from problems. He see's my issues as problems, not me. When somethings vibration, be it mine or where I am no longer matches mine,
I go !!! 

What the hell is the point of hanging around a situation (ONCE THE LESSONS HAVE BEEN DOWNLOADED) for me to process in a "Void" moment

I've just spent a week doing tax, that had been neglected for a few years. It was nice to get it all done and re acquaint with my accountant. But at the end of it all, I was so pissed, pissed because I had given these people so much fucking information about myself like a fucking sheep. When will the system change ? Will it be in my lifetime ?

3 Months !

Where will I be in 3 Months ? Maybe here .........

I love 3's !

Light and Dark to all Beings ......... Peace.

Anger

What's that ?????? You're going out of your brain ??????

Let's hide away !!

People always do this. They put up their shields, they back away, they hide their feelings. Why do we do this ?? Well it's how we've been programmed ! Hide yourself away, "don't cry" it's weakness, it's fucked ! I'm not talking about hiding yourself away from society, I'm talking about your emotions and your feelings. Hiding away from society is extremely good !! I know, I do it regularly, very regularly. And do you know why ? Because of all those people who hold in their emotion, feelings, and thoughts that run around the streets with a vibration that "I" can not and will never handle ! We all know these peeps, they're a complete nightmare !

When will we all learn that "wanting" never gets you to happiness ??? What we are actually doing is pulling ourselves completely away from ourselves ! You have to go within !